!!! a small warning before you read: this post touches on depression, suicidal ideation, dissociation, death, and mental health struggles. There’s something deeply unsettling about a song that understands you a little too well, and “Funeral” feels exactly like that. Phoebe Bridgers captures the strange loneliness of being alive–and the guilt that can come with feeling that way–so precisely that listening to it almost feels intrusive, like someone quietly reading thoughts you

I still remember how it started in July 2017–me casually scrolling through K-pop dance practices on YouTube, looking for a new dance to learn, and somehow ending up permanently changed. One minute, I was watching the Don’t Wanna Cry dance practice. The next, I was googling, Who are they? That search led me to discover that they were coming to Manila, and ticket selling was in five days. Five! I asked my dad if I could go, fully expecting a “maybe next time,” but he said yes.