!!! a small warning before you read: this post touches on suicidal ideation, depression, death, and discussions of mental health struggles. Since it’s my boyfriend’s birthday week, let’s do this! He loves Metallica, so naturally, I had to sit down and talk about something from them. “Fade to Black” turned hopelessness, numbness, and suicidal ideation into a seven-minute spiral that feels both deeply personal and.. universal. Even the song’s emotional core came from loss itsel

!!! a small warning before you read: this post touches on depression, dissociation, self-destructive behavior, ED-related themes, toxic relationships, and mental health. “TV” feels like scrolling through your own emotional timeline and realizing you’ve been dissociating to stay alive. Billie Eilish turns numbness and quiet heartbreak into something almost conversational. It’s the kind of song that sits with you in the silence and somehow makes that silence feel way too loud.

How can someone have so much to say about something? Well.. because when I like something, I become incapable of being normal about it lol! I’m literally Jack Skellington in The Nightmare Before Christmas.. the second I find something I like, I become unhealthily obsessed with it! But honestly, I think it comes from this really deep desire to understand things. For example, when I discover a song I like, I can’t just stop at the song itself.. I’ll look up what album it’s from