!!! a small warning before you read: this post touches on depression, dissociation, self-destructive behavior, ED-related themes, toxic relationships, and mental health. “TV” feels like scrolling through your own emotional timeline and realizing you’ve been dissociating to stay alive. Billie Eilish turns numbness and quiet heartbreak into something almost conversational. It’s the kind of song that sits with you in the silence and somehow makes that silence feel way too loud.

I know.. I know.. there’s already an ABOUT section on this blog, but I wanted to yap more about how this whole thing came to be! So let’s start from when I was a kid.. As a Filipino, of course, music has always been deeply integrated into my life. I grew up in a family that loves music–my titos and titas on my mom’s side, and especially my dad (who, by the way, literally took voice lessons for karaoke.. that’s how serious it is for us). My family always dreamed that I’d becom